Ragnar is one year old today. I can't believe how fast things are going. One year ago today, this moment, I was on the operating table, I got cut open, and there you were.
I can still remember the day after and for a short period of time it was just you and me in the hospital room. You were such a stranger to me, I did’t know you but you were always on my breasts. I saw you maybe 4,5 times when you were in my belly and we played when you were kicking. But I didn’t know you back then. Now I love you so much that I keep having nightmares that if I would lose you one day, I will not survive.
I am so happy that we are both alive and happy after one year. I am very thankful for that, you are helping me to get through the bad thoughts. When you smile at me, you are my sunshine indeed, like how I've been singing to you everyday. I get anxious sometimes, that I don't know If I can provide you with the best, if I give you enough space to grow or a high enough platform to fly, or if I tell you enough I love you. But when you smile at me. I hear you saying: Mom, everything will be fine.
I wish you happy birthday, I hope every year from now that you will be as happy
Love you. . Mom